dream processing

On Tuesday I mentioned to Stacy a fantasy I've been having about going back to Crossroads and getting some closure by seeing what the arboretum has done with the property. So last night I dreamed I did that. I was with Beth and Jeff on a road trip when we passed the driveway for Crossroads, so I decided to go in.

The place had been replaced with a 5-star hotel complete with uniformed bellhops and crowds of well-dressed people. I pushed past people to the front desk and asked the lady there if I could look around, because I used to live there. She looked relieved and said, "Oh, good! We've got a stack of mail for you!" I tried to explain that it was many years ago and that mail wasn't for me, but she wouldn't listen. Another person offered to show me to where the old buildings had been. Beth and Jeff were replaced by Matt and we followed the bellhop down into the basement and past all kinds of weird things to where the highway was behind the hotel. We had to frogger across to get to where he was taking us and it no longer even remotely resembled Crossroads. There was a cabin that was clearly inhabited, but we didn't get a good look at who lived there before I woke up.

I remember having a panic attack in the lobby of the hotel when I realized that everything had been replaced, but for the most part, I don't know how I feel about this dream.

Tuesday and Thursday

Tuesday was one of the best days of my life. It had been planning to go over to Beth's to watch the inauguration, but I didn't really make it all the way to the door and ended up on the couch asleep. Stacy stopped by to see what we were up to and we ended up listening to the event on NPR together, squeeing and giggling a lot.

After all of the hubub died down, we decided to go to the coast together and took Baldr with us. It was a fabulous day, full of good conversation, giggling, and running around on the sand.

From Beauty

Matt and I went to dinner on Broadway and during dinner a spontaneous parade of people carrying flags and cheering walked past.

Then we went to Stacy's birthday party and that was all kinds of fun. All kinds. That includes friends, cuddling, tickling, cats, fire, cheesecake, surprises, and many other kinds that I won't list here.

And I realized that the long winter that Master Chi'ang warned us about is finally coming to an end and that makes me so very, very happy.

This morning I had breakfast with Beth and then biked to Paul's to sing with Beth and Paul. Today isn't over and it's still pretty damn awesome. Why haven't I been biking or singing for the past few years?