dream processing

On Tuesday I mentioned to Stacy a fantasy I've been having about going back to Crossroads and getting some closure by seeing what the arboretum has done with the property. So last night I dreamed I did that. I was with Beth and Jeff on a road trip when we passed the driveway for Crossroads, so I decided to go in.

The place had been replaced with a 5-star hotel complete with uniformed bellhops and crowds of well-dressed people. I pushed past people to the front desk and asked the lady there if I could look around, because I used to live there. She looked relieved and said, "Oh, good! We've got a stack of mail for you!" I tried to explain that it was many years ago and that mail wasn't for me, but she wouldn't listen. Another person offered to show me to where the old buildings had been. Beth and Jeff were replaced by Matt and we followed the bellhop down into the basement and past all kinds of weird things to where the highway was behind the hotel. We had to frogger across to get to where he was taking us and it no longer even remotely resembled Crossroads. There was a cabin that was clearly inhabited, but we didn't get a good look at who lived there before I woke up.

I remember having a panic attack in the lobby of the hotel when I realized that everything had been replaced, but for the most part, I don't know how I feel about this dream.